Forever

She knew she had to say goodbye,

But she said hello anyway.

There would be no forever,

The few moments still pleased her.

This wasn't the eternal song,

The melody was good enough.

It caused her pain,

But the memories were worth it.

The laughter, the smiles and the jokes,

The tears, the longing and the hope.

She didn't realize how it started,

Nor does she know where it will go.

Before she knew it, she was caught in the web,

Of new things and happiness.

Letting go is never easy,

Her heart knew that all the while.

She tried to give up,

But never really could.

So lost in it all,

It consumed her as she stood and watched.

Faith above doubt,

And love before hate.

She found in herself,

All around what she had been looking for.

She felt what she never had before,

But knew it was right all along.

Maybe not in this one,

But in every lifetime hereafter.

She knew she had to say goodbye,

But she said hello anyway.

The Parallel Life

       The window creaked open inch by inch.She thought she could do it this time.If only it would open up a bit further.Wham!It flew open!The wind blew in fiercely and stirred up a mini storm in the loft.As the dust settled,rain drops splattered around the sheets covering the floorboard.The wind blew in her hair as she stretched out her arms to feel the raindrops pelting down. 

       The water washed over her fears as tears streamed down her face.What was it she was running away from?Her true desires,her true self.How could anything which made her happy be wrong for her or for anyone else for that matter?Why was she stopping herself from feeling what she was,from feeling the joy and warmth which enveloped her whenever she let herself go, forgetting the world and just being free from the bonds she had tied herself with?

       She felt she doesn't deserve the happiness she was getting.How could it even be possible?It was as if she's living someone else's life.It couldn't possibly be true.It would soon be over and she would have to return to her old life and then, it would kill her.

       But what if, what if this was real, what if this was meant to be and she was the one pulling away from her happiness because of her fears? What if she was giving away her one chance at love, at life, at happiness and was ruining it all because she was scared to admit what she truly wanted. Was it selfish to actually get what you want? Shouldn't she feel guilty about wanting it all?

       She was restless. She had everything, and yet, her heart wasn't at peace. Stealing moments like these seemed enough till the time she saw what else life had to offer. Part of her wished it had never happened. She was fine earlier but now she was happy, happier than she ever was but she prevented herself from admitting it. She couldn't let it get under her skin, no, as she wasn't sure herself.

       But that is all what she wanted.To be free. To love with all her heart even if she got hurt. She didn't want to live her entire life with regret thinking what could have been. She wanted to give her life one shot and keep stealing moments like these no matter how small, till they became hers and didn't seem like another life.

       The rain stopped. She could hear voices downstairs looking for her. She took one last deep breath and went down.
       This time she didn't close the window.

Distance

"A part of you has grown on me.

Together forever we shall be.Never apart.

Maybe in distance but not in the heart."

-Anonymous

Over the years I have been lucky to have amazing friends-in school, in college, on the World Wide Web and I've found friends in the most unimaginable of places.

Didn't know a girl existed in school for 11 and a half years and now she's the first person I turn to for anything.

Hardly talked to one until school got over and now I cant imagine life without her.We meet only twice a year but we start exactly where we left off.

Someone commented on my blog-the first comment on my first blog post and now that someone is my friend, philosopher and guide and sent me one of my most precious possessions. I've never met her by the way.But it doesn't seem that way at all.

You think a person is your best friend but you won"t realize when distance creeps in between you two.Distance doesn't knock on the door and enter, it just comes. As you try and distance yourself from someone, you might just draw closer to him. Distance cannot be created. Sometimes you think there's distance between two people but they might be best friends.Distance can be deceptive.

They say away from sight, away from heart.I say distance doesn't really matter unless you let it. You might be miles away from someone and yet it doesn't feel that way and you might live under the same roof with someone where the distance can never be covered.So if you feel distance is what is keeping you away from what you want or who you want in your life, think again because distance doesn't know how far it is or how long it is unless we give it that power.

PS: This one's for you Eshi, Pri and Sim..I Love you guys and always know,no matter the distance between us, you'll be in my heart forever.